SECRET FILE: All For My Wayne


Mar 29, 2018 at 7:45 PM
Posted by : Marie Li
Filed Under : Secret Files

I dreamed about you Wayne. Yes, kung kailan naman wala na tayo e tsaka naman kita napanaginipan.

In my dream, inexplain mo sa akin lahat. Tinanong kita, "Bakit mo ko sini-seen?" "Bakit sini-seen mo nalang mga messages ko?" But you didn't respond.

Umiyak ako sa panaginip ko. Wala na talagang pag-asang magkabalikan pa tayo. Tumalikod ako at naglakad palayo pero tumakbo ka sa harap ko at niyakap mo ako. There I knew na naiyak kana din. "Sorry. Please mag-antay ka lang sa messages ko, I'll respond pero baka matagalan pa kasi bantay sarado po ako babe." When you called me babe in my dreams, lalo akong umiyak, naramdaman ko namang humigpit na yung pagkakayakap mo sakin. "Akala ko iiwan mo na talaga ako e." I said to you with a teary-eyed and while smiling. Pinunasan mo yung luha ko at hinalikan nya ko sa noo.

Nasira yung panaginip ko nang gisingin ako ni lola at tinanong kung bakit ako umiiyak at sino daw yung Wayne na kanina ko pa binabanggit. Syempre nagtaka ako, napansin ko yung ilong ko na barado kahit wala naman akong sipon. Humarap ako sa salamin at nakita yung mata kong pugto at parang may gusto pang ilabas na luha. "Sore eyes lang po siguro," I answered and faked a smile.

I guess you're happy with your life now. Mapapagaya ba ko sa ex mong binlock mo dati? Wala ka bang gustong i-chat manlang sakin? Puro kana seen e. Haha. Ang masakit pa e I'm still dealing with the damage na binigay mo sakin pero nabalitaan kong nagbalikan na daw kayo ng ex mo. Haha ano ako panakip butas po? Grabe naman. Hehe.

Sorry a? Sorry if I ain't perfect. I'm sorry if I'm not pretty. I'm sorry for my flaws. I'm sorry if I ain't the girl worth fighting for. 

Yung panaginip ko? Napaka-imposibleng mangyari. I don't think you can hug me like that. I don't think na magrereply ka pa sakin, at kung sakali man, baka goodbye message na yun. Haha. I don't think that you miss me. And I don't think that you could cry like that infront of me.

I'm missing you like crazy. I miss your high pitched 'na-fake!' at yung mga pangaasar mo. I miss your voice. I miss how you sing and how you make the guitar sing too. I miss your long sweet messages. I miss you goodmorning and goodnight messages. I miss how you were there for me. I miss how you understand my attitude. I miss your imissyou/s and iloveyou/s. I miss everything about you. All I wish is for you to come back Almond ko.  Pero that's impossible, just like me dream to happen.

Akala ko ba okay tayo? Sa isang iglap nawala lahat. Sumuko ka Wayne. Bakit? Para ba sa ex mo? Bat mo pa ko syinota kung may balak ka naman palang balikan sya?

Sabi mo 'akala ko wala nang pag-asang mabalik yung kaligayahan ko pero salamat sayo kasi masaya na ulit ako ngayon.' Hahaha those are lies naman po pala.

Kung ako yung nagpapasaya sayo, bakit mo siya binalikan? Why did you end up with her instead of 'with me?' Ito lang advice ko sayo Wayne ha, don't try to find your happiness to the person where you lost it.

I got so attached unto you Wayne. Everything that I do, reminds me of you. Now I don't really know if I can deal with the pain. I don't know how could I move on. Mahal na mahal na mahal pa din kita. And that love won't fade, alam ko yun. So come back, come back to me Wayne ko

'Meeting the right person at the wrong time sucks.'

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Mar 29, 2018 at 7:45 PM
Posted by : Marie Li
Filed Under : Secret Files